Broken brain

[textualdeviance]

So, thanks to my idiocy in thinking I had another month's prescription hanging around, I ran out of my ADD meds last week, and couldn't get an appointment with my doc until the 15th. I just called and asked them to mail me a prescription to get me through, but it'll still be a few days before I get that.

This is the longest I've been without my meds since I started taking them, and I'm really starting to feel the loss. I'm screwing up at work left and right, and can't focus on anything at all for more than a few minutes. It's incredibly frustrating to feel this incompetent.

More than that, though, it's frustrating that this stuff is so heavily controlled by the fucking DEA that I can't just get an emergency prescription called in, nor can I get a large supply all at once. I have to have actual paper prescriptions, one each for every 30-day supply, and I have to have appointments with the doc to get them.

It's not my fault my brain is broken and that only a special version of meth fixes it. I wish I could just carry around some sort of ID card or something that entitles me to get the stuff when I need it, instead of having to jump through hoops like I'm some sort of criminal.

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[textualdeviance.livejournal.com]

I've been on these meds for... 8? 9 years? Something like that. And they really have done miracles for me. Helped me go back to school, get a new career, decent job, etc. Among other nice things.

I'd forgotten how screwy I get without them, though. And I'm also kind of amazed that I managed to function at all before.