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textualdevianceSigning the lease in about an hour.
Having the obligatory, "Oh my god, what am I doing?" freakout.
Trying to pat myself on the head and remind myself that I had the same freakout before I went to school, and that turned out very well. Granted that I'm still paying that off four years later (though with luck, the last of it will go away within a year) but I think ultimately it did me a lot of good.
There's similar reckless impulsiveness behind the decision to do this, but I do think the reasoning behind it is sound. I realize that it seems a little loopy to be moving because we want to, and not because we have to (or because we're deliberately investing or something) but I really do think the end result is going to be worth the sheer chaos of the next few months. And it's that chaos that I'm dreading--not any potential pitfalls of living in a new place after having been here for so long.
Yeah, I may end up being a little homesick for the house we call Chez Fou, but honestly, I've never been emotionally attached to it anyway, because I never expected to be here more than a few years. We've done very little, for instance, in the way of customizing it to our tastes. Adding the A/C, hot tub and network wiring is probably the most we've done in that direction. The flooring changes were necessary, not design choices. We've never even painted.
There are memories here, to be sure. We've had a few roomies, some great parties and I spent half a year babysitting a sweet little girl whom I miss dearly now. This house is where all my fandom stuff happened. But the house itself? It's always felt sort of generic to me. It's a nice house, definitely. But it was a spec home, and didn't have any of the custom things that we're hoping to make the builders put in the next place. We never wanted to do anything truly radical to it because we needed it to be saleable. There will, of course, be some of that generic feeling with the next place because it will most likely be in a Stepford Subdivision of some sort, but at least the interior will be a lot more to our taste and needs than what we can do here.
And of course, if I do freak out too much, we can always come back after we've spiffed it up. So it's not truly gone forever just yet, and I can have some time to adjust to the idea of not living here anymore.
Having the obligatory, "Oh my god, what am I doing?" freakout.
Trying to pat myself on the head and remind myself that I had the same freakout before I went to school, and that turned out very well. Granted that I'm still paying that off four years later (though with luck, the last of it will go away within a year) but I think ultimately it did me a lot of good.
There's similar reckless impulsiveness behind the decision to do this, but I do think the reasoning behind it is sound. I realize that it seems a little loopy to be moving because we want to, and not because we have to (or because we're deliberately investing or something) but I really do think the end result is going to be worth the sheer chaos of the next few months. And it's that chaos that I'm dreading--not any potential pitfalls of living in a new place after having been here for so long.
Yeah, I may end up being a little homesick for the house we call Chez Fou, but honestly, I've never been emotionally attached to it anyway, because I never expected to be here more than a few years. We've done very little, for instance, in the way of customizing it to our tastes. Adding the A/C, hot tub and network wiring is probably the most we've done in that direction. The flooring changes were necessary, not design choices. We've never even painted.
There are memories here, to be sure. We've had a few roomies, some great parties and I spent half a year babysitting a sweet little girl whom I miss dearly now. This house is where all my fandom stuff happened. But the house itself? It's always felt sort of generic to me. It's a nice house, definitely. But it was a spec home, and didn't have any of the custom things that we're hoping to make the builders put in the next place. We never wanted to do anything truly radical to it because we needed it to be saleable. There will, of course, be some of that generic feeling with the next place because it will most likely be in a Stepford Subdivision of some sort, but at least the interior will be a lot more to our taste and needs than what we can do here.
And of course, if I do freak out too much, we can always come back after we've spiffed it up. So it's not truly gone forever just yet, and I can have some time to adjust to the idea of not living here anymore.
