Why must I be so ethical?

[textualdeviance]

Job is driving me so far up a wall I'm starting to think I'm Spiderman.

Dilemma:

-What I'm doing is boring and a total waste of my skills and education.
-It also only takes me 3-4 hours/day to do--on a busy day.
-Leaving me stuck at work, trying to look busy, and feeling guilty for stealing the company's money to fuck off on the intarweebs.

What I'd like to do:

-Ask boss if there's something I'm missing about my duties and/or whether I can be useful helping out elsewhere to keep me busy, or whether I can just go part time, work from home, blah blah. Or ...
-Quit entirely, because this isn't what I signed on for.

Why I can't:

-Teammate's job is more or less the same as mine, just on a different section. And unless I'm unaware of something else she's doing, she actually has less to do every day than I do.
-Which means Teammate is ALSO being paid to fuck off all day. Or she's a total idiot who actually needs the time to do something so simple.
-Therefore, speaking up about not having enough to do would call out that she's been fucking off and/or an idiot for the last 6 months.
-Which would likely put her job in jeopardy. Ack.
-I could quit entirely without giving that reason, but then they'd just hire someone else in my place who'd ALSO get paid to fuck off all day. Which wouldn't be fair to them.
-Quitting without a Damned Good Reason would fuck my reputation with this team and my agency.

So ... there it is. My options are to suck it up and drown in boredom and guilt every day, or speak up, and risk fucking someone else out of a job she needs. Meh. Double meh.

Comments

[textualdeviance.livejournal.com]

Well, I broke down and sent mail to my teammate, asking if I was missing something--if there was something more to our job than what I've been doing. So maybe that'll open the dialogue, and then we can both just go to the boss and say, "Hey, this is a 1-person job, and (Teammate) wants it. Sayonara."

I'm just glad I'm in a position where I don't actually need the work. The paychecks certainly make things easier, but it's not like we're in deep shit if I'm not getting paid. I'm more worried about my future job prospects than anything else; if I ditch this thing and don't get back to work until after the kid's in daycare, I'm looking at a really effed-up job search.

Of course, a miracle could happen and my book could get published, and I wouldn't have to care about this at all ... ;)