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Gah
Signing the lease in about an hour.
Having the obligatory, "Oh my god, what am I doing?" freakout.
Trying to pat myself on the head and remind myself that I had the same freakout before I went to school, and that turned out very well. Granted that I'm still paying that off four years later (though with luck, the last of it will go away within a year) but I think ultimately it did me a lot of good.
There's similar reckless impulsiveness behind the decision to do this, but I do think the reasoning behind it is sound. I realize that it seems a little loopy to be moving because we want to, and not because we have to (or because we're deliberately investing or something) but I really do think the end result is going to be worth the sheer chaos of the next few months. And it's that chaos that I'm dreading--not any potential pitfalls of living in a new place after having been here for so long.
( The last days of Chez Fou. )
And of course, if I do freak out too much, we can always come back after we've spiffed it up. So it's not truly gone forever just yet, and I can have some time to adjust to the idea of not living here anymore.
Having the obligatory, "Oh my god, what am I doing?" freakout.
Trying to pat myself on the head and remind myself that I had the same freakout before I went to school, and that turned out very well. Granted that I'm still paying that off four years later (though with luck, the last of it will go away within a year) but I think ultimately it did me a lot of good.
There's similar reckless impulsiveness behind the decision to do this, but I do think the reasoning behind it is sound. I realize that it seems a little loopy to be moving because we want to, and not because we have to (or because we're deliberately investing or something) but I really do think the end result is going to be worth the sheer chaos of the next few months. And it's that chaos that I'm dreading--not any potential pitfalls of living in a new place after having been here for so long.
( The last days of Chez Fou. )
And of course, if I do freak out too much, we can always come back after we've spiffed it up. So it's not truly gone forever just yet, and I can have some time to adjust to the idea of not living here anymore.
